Reality Check

Twenty four years ago I found out I was going to be a mama!   I weighed all of 125 pounds but started wearing maternity clothes before there was any visible sign of my baby bump.  I was so excited and started reading everything I could on having a baby.  I eagerly scheduled our prenatal classes at the hospital.  I remember the class when the instructor got graphic about the birthing process.  UH OH!  I was informed prior to getting pregnant, but I was thinking about a chubby little bundle of joy and overlooked the reality of childbirth.  When Jeff and I got home I announced…

“I changed my mind!  I don’t think I’m going to survive this!”

I wish I had a picture of Jeff’s face at that moment…first incredulous like he hadn’t heard me right, then checking to see if I was making some pregnant brain joke, then laughing as he realized I was in panic mode.

 “Well, it’s a little late for that…there’s only a few ways this ends and unfortunately, none of them are easy”

I survived and willingly had two more children.  Best thing I’ve ever done with my life!

A few days ago I was reviewing my upcoming training plan and I caught a glimpse of this:

trainingpeaks

It’s blurry but in the bottom left corner that says “20 weeks to IM”

The emotions I had were not unlike my pre baby reality check.  I’ve paid my non refundable entrance fee…the only way out of this is at the end of 140.6 miles.  Uh Oh!

First song on my playlist as I headed out this morning for run – So timely.

“What are you waiting for?” by Nickelback

Are you waiting on a lightning strike?
Are you waiting for the perfect night?
Are you waiting ’til the time is right?
What are you waiting for?
Don’t you wanna learn to deal with fear?
Don’t you wanna take the wheel and steer?
Don’t you wait another minute here?
What are you waiting for?

 

You gotta go and reach for the top
Believe in every dream that you got
You’re only living once so tell me
What are you, what are you waiting for?
You know you gotta give it your all
And don’t you be afraid if you fall
You’re only living once so tell me
What are you waiting for?

 

Are you waiting for the right excuse?
Are you waiting for a sign to choose?
While you’re waiting it’s the time you lose
What are you waiting for?
Don’t you wanna spread your wings and fly?
Don’t you really wanna live your life?
Don’t you wanna love before you die?
What are you waiting for?

 Everybody’s gonna make mistakes
But everybody’s got a choice to make
Everybody needs a leap of faith
When are you taking yours?

 

Now’s the time for my leap of faith.  My mountain is here!  No more waiting, no excuses, maybe a little afraid I’ll fail but gathering the courage to try, most likely an increase in “Hangry” moments, Reaching, Stretching, Growing – It’s right here just within reach!  I’m committed – My dreaming is over…Wide awake and making “Ironmama” my REALITY!

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1 Response to Reality Check

  1. Carol Fuller says:

    I’m so very proud of you, my dear daughter!! I know it’s taken a lot of tenacity and you have the courage to not only start it but to finish it and do it right!! Wish I could be there at the finish line to welcome your triumphant finish. Best wishes. Love you lots!!

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